A what?

I'm not particularly talented in creating Anagrams but I got a site that helped me get the word combinations I could do. I was trying to get an anagram for my entire name. I had to use my new middle name since I needed it to create the word, "dragon". WHat I got was this: "So pia, dragon souls evade land". Which was great since I've titled a lot of things Dragons don't land here. Now, I can explain why using an anagram of my entire name.

Packing

*Leaving on a Jet Plane playing in the background*

So we are currently packing. It's a good thing my books were already packed or I'd be in trouble. I'm still hunting down the new ones I've read and scattered around the house since we did Spring Cleaning last April. Not to mention all the Japanese books I have been procrastinating from. Neal even packed my bento stuff which is great but easy since they were all in plastic containers anyway.

It's kind of scary because I realize I never really truly just packed up all my stuff to put them in a new house. Sure we did that 2x when we were young but it was more like moving all the stuff we already had into new houses. This time, I won't be bringing anything but my personal stuff.

Questions like, do I bring my old childhood pictures, stuffed toys, old memorabilia from college or even high school, pop up every time I pack. Even clothes are hard to pack. I have to decide whether 1. Are they are really mine? 2. Do they still fit? 3. Can I still wear them and not look silly? 4. Do I really want to waste all that effort going slim just to fit into something I used to wear in college or even high school. (Yes, I do hang on to them) The prospect of buying all new stuff is scary. Books were easier to pack. I just left all my college books, threw my notes and retained all my favorite books. I left all the romance novels and young adult novels that weren't exactly award winning.

We're planning to build a bookshelf in the baby's room for all the books we want to buy our future babies. Including the complete set of Hardbound Hardy Boys Neal and I have been eying since we found out they were still in print. We still know the manager in Powerbooks ATC so we're pretty good in the book department.

It's really hard deciding what to bring. Yes I can go back to get them but I also have to let go. Neal and I have agreed on the 3 box rule: "Keep/Bring", "Throw/Give Away" and "Stay". My dragons can go to the new house but my other cutesy little anime figurines may not. We still don't have bookshelves so it really is hard.

We also have no bare necessities, except for soap which is great because our bathroom is the only complete part of the house. We might not even have a working kitchen because we still haven't bought the granite. We are pretty screwed the first few days. I imagine all the chores and errands I'd have to run alone before the holidays because Neal will be at work. On the bright side, my vacation will start this Saturday, the dogs will have their cages and I just took them to the vet for one last visit yesterday

I'm just ranting and raving at the same blog entry. I'm truly psyched. I'll upload shots of the house we had from start to finish during the holidays. ^_^

another ghost

I have learned my lesson when it comes to my third eye abilities(if they really are true) I have learned that documenting what has been happening is a good way of checking if my predictions come true.
Right now, I have an aunt who is really sick with cancer in the hospital. I guess I'm really worried and I'm just checking if I still have it.
Even with baby Nathan, I knew something was wrong as early as the 2nd month when I dreamed he wasn't complete and he was born but I couldn't do anything. Then I couldn't sleep the night he died because I knew something was wrong. I just wish I could do something.
This Sunday, I was left alone in the car at night by Neal. That's pretty normal. We do it every week. I stay outside and he goes in the house in Anahaw and I watch the car. This Sunday was different. I almost asked Neal not to go leave me alone. I was so scared. I felt this evil presence lurking around the shadows and it was not human. Besides, I'm not afraid of anybody attacking the car, I'd just run them down or something. No, this was an irrational fear and I could feel him circling the car. I swear, I was so scared I hugged my knees and turned on the lights inside the car and sang as loud as I could till Neal went out. This isn't the first time I've felt ghosts there in Anahaw but it was the first one I felt that was scary.
I hate irrational fears, they usually precede death. Like someone's warning me and I just won't listen. In my defense, they aren't the nice spirits that I usually notice and don't feel afraid of. They seem... well, not evil exactly, but they are up to no good. I hope I'm wrong.
I haven't woken up crying yet. Which is what usually predicts people in my father's side dying.
I just realized I have a perfect way of knowing if the ghost we saw last last week was a ghost or a person. The type of the house will show if it was physically possible for a person to be standing there. I'll update you when we pass by there next week. ^_^

wishlist 2009

Sometimes I wonder why my wishlist never changes. Possibly because I can't buy the expensive stuff like lenses and all... Anyway, here's my wishlist for 2009.

Anime:
These can actually be found in Comic Alley. They're only PHP 590. Yup Arf, they're not 2.8k anymore. I just can't buy them right now because PHP 590 can buy me a set of drinking glasses and necessities come first.

1. L nendoroid (chibi) figure

2. Haruhi Nendoroid (chibi) figure


Japanese:

1. Japanese books in Nihonggo (elementary books, storybooks, young adult stuff, newspapers/magazines)
2. Murakami's new book 1Q84 (Japanese version)

Books:
1. Any Gregory Maguire books except for Wicked.
2. Science fiction classics found in the list of Science Fiction Masterworks except for the following:

1. The Dispossessed and The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula Le Guin
2. Gateway by Frederik Pohl
3. I am Legend by Richard Matheson

They are cheap publications ranging from PHP 349 (Available in Powerbooks and Fully Booked to PHP 500 (hardcopy version in Fully Booked).

3. Murakami's Norwegian Wood or if it is already available, the english version of 1Q84

Photography

1. Benro A300EX or A500EX with BH1 (ballhead) PHP 3700 and 4200 respectively though they are currently on sale in Aperture Trading in Banawe. (10% discount)
2. Canon Flash 580 EX PHP 18k in Hidalgo, 21-24K in malls.
3. Sandisk Ultra III or IV 4GB CF card.
4. Canon RC1 remote trigger for Canon EOS 400D
5. Canon 10-22 mm f3.4-4.5 USM

House stuff: (Also known as important stuff)

1. Baking stuff
2. Other household necessities (except for the real basice)
3. not so important but very cute bento stuff (I'm looking for small egg shapers and cute cutters for onigiri.
4. cute bento style lunch boxes
5. Stuff that give extra storage or are just plain cute!

PS3: I still have lots of games to play so this really isn't important.

1. Assassin's Creed II
2. Uncharted 2: Among Thieves

breakfast

I just went and searched for one of the few 7-11s here in Ortigas. Anybody whose lived or worked there knows that Ministops can be found everywhere but there are only a few 7-11s in the area. I only know of 2. So instead of waiting for the mall to open, I just had to go out and find myself breakfast. I left at 930 and got back by 945 which includes an elevator ride up and down 11 floors, walking a distance of 3 blocks and buying my food. All in all I got my morning walk and a very cheap breakfast for PHP57 (about one US dollar). I hate the office here because there are very limited breakfast places. Sure there are 4 malls around the area but all the places that sell any food before 10AM are at least 2-3 blocks away and I get to work at 800 AM, sometimes earlier. Unless I opt to eat at very expensive hotels, I have to starve till 10. AT least in the Makati building, all I need to do is go down or walk less than a block to find food.

on ghosts and other things

on ghosts
Neal and I went to Alabang with Pauline and Ronnie (my sister and her boyfriend) and we had a chance to go through some developing subdivision. We got there at around 7 in the evening and since it was really dark there. Lots of houses built with no one living in them. We only saw one house with people and electricity. We passed by this row of 5 similar houses and I saw a man looking out the window out of one of them. It was strange because I couldn't see his face though he was standing behind a closed window. He was wearing a white shirt and he was bald. I already knew it wasn't possible since workers aren't allowed to stay there and no one is living in that subdivision yet. There weren't even any streetlights yet. When we passed the row again less than 5 minutes later, he was gone. I started getting this cold creepy feeling up my back. I knew it was a ghost. I wasn't the only one who saw him too. Ronnie saw him as well. So I guess the question is, does that make the ghost real? When more than one people sees it? Or does that make him human?


on Watching new moon
Last Friday, Neal had to leave work early. Not because he wanted to but because he had to. They had a policy that day when everyone had to leave the office at exactly 5:30 PM. I love that policy. I wish they would have that more often. Anyway, we had a date night in Greenbelt 3. The only place Neal wants to go to and park. We thought we could catch an early showing of New Moon since it was a Friday and everyone else seemed to have watched it last week but no. The 8PM and 10Pm showing were already booked. We had to settle for the last full show at 11PM. We didn't particularly want to watch it but since the only other option was Christmas Carol and Ninja Assassin, we took our chances with New Moon. Neal even warned me to keep quiet since we will be watching the movie. It turned out, he was the one who couldn't keep quiet. He kept yawning, making comments, and reacting to the movie.
I could have kept quiet throughout the whole thing except for the scene where Alice showed Aro(Michael Sheen, who was a werewolf called Lucius in Underworld) how she knew Bella will be a vampire. I had to laugh out loud. If you have watched it, you'll understand. I'm sorry.
Neal kept making remarks like, "was this written by a thirteen year old? or "this is 300 all over again." So much for being nice amidst die hard fans.
Dakota Fanning has grown old! She's great and she looks so mature but the movie (or should I say the book?) could have developed better. If they were real vampires for instance, Edward wouldn't be having such a hard time killing himself. Where does all his angst come from anyway? Everyone else in his family seems normal compared to him. And true to the Twilight Saga, they managed to make werewolves cute and cuddly. So much for scary vampires and werewolves.

on spending on books
I bought a cheap copy of wicked. Cheap for a new book since it was only 349 pesos. Did I say it was cheap? You'll understand why when I explain what happened next. We bought it in Greenbelt 3 and we knew the person manning the cashier. She pointed out something I never really bothered with: my purse points. She said "Wow, you have a lot of purse points."
I only have 210 purse points in my Powercard and I didn't think it was a lot until she explained it. You get one point for every peso you spend in Powerbooks. For every 1000 points, you get 1 purse point and I have 210.
If you do the math, that's 210 purse points x 1000 points = PHP210,000.00.
I can't believe I've spent that much in books in a period of more or less 12 years? All for personal reading material. Sure I've bought gifts, like an average of 1500 every year for Dawn and Arf so that still leaves me with a whole lot of books. I wonder how that will grow now that I'm about to move into a new house?

Wave to Google

I read Rocky's facebook post and I realize that Google Wave, would be perfect for the DnD aka Dungeons and Dragons group Neal is currently in. I'm actually a part of their mailing list so I know what I have to deal with. The mailing group is a big mess of emails where the group schedules games, talks about their characters ( old ones, dead ones, new ones, characters waiting for other characters to die...), the new plots, their characters' backstories, other related DnD stuff, other non DnD related stuff... You get my point. SOmetimes, though I love reading these mails, the sheer number that their group produces each week can be daunting and it's hard to find the mails that you want to focus on.

Google Wave is perfect for them. It allows people to reply and get their messages in real time. The emails will not get confusing even if someone doesn't reply to the latest email because only one document or wave is kept updated and what's more, you can replay the wave. Replaying the wave is like looking at the email progress from its initial form to the current version, inserting replies as they happen.

I'm actually writing this while I watch the Google Wave introduction during the Google I/O. Secretly, I've wanted to work for Google since I saw their qualification exams for developers. This Google Wave video just makes me want to work for them more.

Go through the website and watch the video. Or if that's not your thing, read the Wikipedia version. It's a tool that may replace all the current online tools you may be using now. It's certainly another brilliant idea from Google.

Basically, I'm also writing this to get an invite from Rocky. Google Wave is a promising OPEN SOURCE(!!) application and the secret developer in me is itching to read the code.

I hope I get an invite.

A very eventful week

I promise I'll place a picture here. Right now though, since I'm stuck in the hospital I have to make do without one.

Technically, the only noteworthy days were Monday and Friday. The rest of the week was pretty normal. SO far. I still have two days to go.

Last Monday, I was still lying in bed when I heard a big boom. Then the electricity turned off. I wouldn't have stood up but another boom went out. I stood up and started getting all the electrical equipments unplugged. My sister rushed inside the door as well. Apparently a Meralco pole cause the explosion and it was the one nearest our house. We went down to check it out and to take the dogs out as well. They were right beside the gate, near the wires and I didn't want them electrocuted.

Now, I wasn't really worried, we've had around 4 fires in the street in the last couple of years. The wires between the poles near our street are so intertwined it's not even safe to look out the window and reach out your hand if you're on the second floor. However, most of the fires in our neighborhood are short, dangerous but not fatal. No one's ever been killed and the fires thankfully, never reach the homes. It's surprising to see how many people there have fire extinguishers and if you look at the houses in our neighborhood, they're not exactly the kind of people who will be prepared for fire.

So this particular fire wasn't really scary until we got down and heard the news. One of our neighbors was constructing additional levels to their house. They were in the third floor and a welder, was killed. Have you ever seen a man electrocuted by a main line? I didn't want to see his body as they carried him past our house.

We went up again and this time we turned off the main line to our house. Then my sister and I took the dogs out of the cage. We just got back to get our office bags and since our relatives advised us to go out and stay in my aunt's car wash, a couple of blocks away, we left the house with the dogs and ran out. There was smoke everywhere. Later we learned that a fire did break out but someone used a fire extinguisher on it. So after staying near all our other neighbors outside their houses checking the fire, the firemen, the police and our house, my sister and I walked the dogs the long way around to the car wash. Tammy, our oldest dog was clearly out of shape and we gave the dogs water when we got there. However, all the excitement had stopped on our street. The fire was out, the firemen didn't do anything ans since nothing else was happening, our neighbors all went home. So did we. When we got back home, Meralco was already there fixing the line. We got our electricity back around lunch time.

Fast forward to Friday. I woke up and my scalp was itchy. Since Neal was still taking a bath, I tried to go back to sleep again but suddenly every part of my body was itchy. I don't exaggerate. I was itchy everywhere, and my ears felt like cauliflower and when I looked in the mirror, well.. all I can say is, Manny Pacquiao looked better after the fight with Cotto. My face was read, my ears were big, my eyelids were partially covering my eyes. When you watch people getting allergies in the movies, like in Hitch, I always thought that was exaggerated, until that morning.

I was red everywhere. They looked like small insect bites so we did the rational thing and went to the hospital's emergency room after we took a bath. My first choice was St Luke's. It's the closest hospital and I know from previous experience that their emergency room had good doctors. It's a good thing I also had Neal's HMO card, I wouldn't be typing this in a private room if I didn't.

We actually stayed in the emergency room for 6 hours. We got there around 7 and had to wait for a room till 1. I could just imagine myself walking up to the office and saying in a hoarse voice "I think I'm having an allergy attack." My face and my voice was enough to get their attention and I had my diagnosis and medicine within 30 minutes. The doctor said it was Anaphylaxis, an acute systemic hypersensitivity reaction. I get allergies in one form or another every month. Even I was shocked at how intense it was. If you watch House, this happens a lot. Imagine a scene where the camera zooms in to the patient's throat, "tok" the throat clamps shut and the camera zooms out to the patient who can't breathe. That's Anaphylactic shock, the most severe reaction to Anaphylaxis and since my voice was already hoarse, it was already getting there according to the doctor.

I was asleep for a couple of hours because of the medicines they gave me, I slept because Neal told me to go to sleep and I woke up because Neal was already bored and wanted me to keep him company. They gave me diphenhydramine(Benadryl), ephinephrine (adrenalin) and Solu Cortef (I keep forgetting. I'm always dizzy after they give me the Benadryl). The first shots were given directly through the muscle which makes the medicine more effective as opposed to directly in the IV where the medicine can react faster. The muscle shot hurts a lot too. The doctors say the shots hurt but the pain is after they give you the shot.

They kept me in the hospital for more medicines and to keep me under observation. Neal wants to go home and I know this because he has been saying that since last night.

I'm being fed hypoallergenic food. I thought it was fun at first because hospital food amazes me. I really like it and this is the first time my food actually fell into a category different from normal. Apparently hypoallergenic food is not that great because I have to stay away from food I loved: chicken egg, all forms of dairy including milk and chocolate, mangoes, strawberries, watermelons, eggplants, seafood ... The list goes on. I ate almost all of that yesterday which explains my reaction today. Correction, according to Neal, I could have eaten all of that but now I can't for the next few weeks.

I now have an allergologist. Who I may have to see regularly from now on. Funny, my dad never had one and he has more allergies than I do. I'm still here, taking advantage of the WiFi here at the hospital. Neal and I still have tons to do for the house and I want to go back to reality. I still need to take pictures of the home improvements, buy bathroom stuff and hopefully, choose the paint for the rooms. We also need to get permission from Camella to start on the fence outside the house. Arrgh. Too may things to do!

Morning gloom

I woke up to a bright and sunny morning. I got to work and I was shocked at how polluted our city becomes during rush hour. My friend and I had to get our phones to take a picture. This was taken on the 11th floor of our building. Note that the pollution seems thicker in the north rather than in the south. This is what we are breathing when we go out the street everyday.

new post rules

I've been thinking about adding pictures to every post. The fun thing is, it will help me develop my skills as a photographer and force me to learn how to fit photographs into my posts. However, I'm so busy right now so I may just use a stack of photos that I already have. Including the one posted here. It was a spur of the moment thing in Pagudpud. The sky was perfect so I decided to make a silhouette shot with Neal as the model. It reminds me of our mountain climbing days. I hope I can post our photos of it here soon.

Research

There are certain things I want to do this year, or next year if I'm lucky...

1. Study Japanese and pass JLPT Level 3 (December 2010)
2. Go to Japan
3. Go to Prague
4. Go to Greece
5. Revisit Cambodia
6. Go to Hong Kong
7. Go to Bangkok

I need to research though. Hopefully I can go somewhere nice next year. Whichever of the listed destinations are cheapest. Hehe.

bad omens

I've been scared to go back to bed recently. I haven't been sleeping properly and sometimes I go to the bathroom convincing myself that I just need to pee. The last two nights though have been rough. I feel like someone has been watching in the living room and I can't cross 10 feet (bathroom door to bed) in the darkness without someone awake. That someone is always neal.

I also had a nightmare last night
I dreamt that insects were crawling out of me. At first I though they were just inside my clothes but when I took them off, I realized they were coming from inside me. I had two running stitches on both sides of my body where my skin was just healing. I had one big worm stuck to my ass and I pulled it off against Neal's wishes since he was worried but I just wanted them to go away and I killed it with my hands. I woke up with my butt feeling strangely violated.

A short trip to Google and I found out that the insect type was important. I knew that the insects crawling out of me were cockroaches but the one in me was like a worm from Dune. Cockroaches symbolizes need for renewal and a need to rethink major aspects of my life. The worm is a little more complicated. It was inside me partly and I knew it was feeding off me so it probably represents something negative, a low opinion of myself or negative thoughts (most likely the latter). Freeing myself from the worm even if it was painful means I may be striving to free myself of negative thoughts. Killing the worm after getting it off me is a good omen I guess. After the worm killing thing, the cockroaches stopped coming from inside me and my stitches were partly healed. It's been a while since I've had symbolic dreams.

The ghost hanging around our house bothers me. It's usually a sign of a friend dying. Someone whose death will affect me. I hope everyone is okay.

Tragedy is always a personal thing

Ever since typhoon Ondoy hit the Philippines last Saturday, news about it have been popping up in Facebook. People have been sharing news and information regarding flooded areas, how to help, videos and pictures on what happened. Ondoy is lucky. It hit Metro Manila, one of the more densely populated areas in the Philippines and it got a lot of media coverage. It was also the highest rainfall recorded since 1967 but the fact that Metro Manila was hit also helped. People were uploading videos and pictures taken from camera phones and other hand held devices. Everyone was aware of what happened.
What you really can't erase from Facebook is the constant updates from Farmville, Mafia Wars, Castle Age, Restaurant City... Yes, people in the Philippines still play these games and they do post items not Ondoy related.
Ondoy is a disaster, yes. But is it something that everyone should focus on 24/7... No.
Unfortunately, disasters are not always considered as a tragedy by all. Though hundreds of thousands of people may be affected, you cannot expect everyone to react the same way you do. Just because you are helping out does not make the person posting about Sesame Street or Farmville less affected. Just because your house is flooded does not mean everyone has to feel sorry for you. People living in Cainta, Marikina and Pasig should be happy they still have houses, if not, they should be happy that they are alive. This disaster affects us in different ways.
I'm just reacting because a friend of mine was angry for all the non Ondoy related posts. I get that his house is probably flooded but the fact that he can still post in Facebook is already a plus. Some people have relatives who died. We Filipinos have close family ties and I'm sure, most of us have families or friends that have been affected.
Tragedy is personal. It is not something that can be shared. To the people who share my friend's anger, I understand you. However you also have to understand other people. Don't expect people to be sad just because you are. You can lose everything in the world but you can never expect them to feel the same way you do.
To cite an example, when my baby died, I was devastated. My family was devastated. My friends and relatives in Facebook all knew that fact but that did not stop them from posting pregnancy or baby news in their wall. Even if they knew I could see it. I don't know if it's just me but for me, back then, that bordered on insensitivity. I knew they were happy but they didn't have to shove it in my face. What could I do? Nothing. Stop reading Facebook posts and just play games.
Life's like that it seems and I learned abut it the hard way. I hope everyone else does too. Maybe the world wouldn't need another Ondoy like tragedy to remind us that we need to accept people and help them when they need it.

Year of Tragedy

I have been waiting for a while to post this. Personally, I believe this year, 2009, should be called the "Year of Tragedy". I didn't wish it but I felt that other people will also be affected by this. No one is going to come out of this year unscathed. I just wish that everyone will be able to recover.

reviving something almost dead

I wanted to revive my blog. I started with this once so I'll see if I still have the same answers.

NAME: pia
DO YOU THINK YOU'RE NORMAL: nope
DO PEOPLE FIND YOU STRANGE: yup
DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD: yup
DO YOU SIN A LOT: yup tho i try hard not to... there are days when I can do better
DO YOU BACKSTAB: No. I don't even do this in games. I suck at being a rogue.
ARE YOU A GOOD FRIEND:I really really hope that I am
ARE YOU IN LOVE:Yes, I've been in love for so long I don't remember how it felt NOT to be in love.
ARE YOU YOUNG:I will never be old. I never feel like I'm growing old. That may be the secret to immortality. death is just another phase in life.
EVER BEEN A LEADER OF SOMETHING:Yes, events, projects, teams...
EVER KILLED A LIVING CREATURE:ants, cockroaches, flies, some insects bigger than cockroaches, worms, no reptiles yet, no mammals either though I was an accomplice in the death of some mice and SEVERAL huge rats. I think I ran over a flying bird once but I'm not sure.
LAST ODD THING DONE: Define odd? I've done some things that others may think as odd but I believe to be normal.
DO YOU WEAR MAKE-UP:nope. I'm still allergic and I still don't know how to put it.
DO YOU REBEL:yup, in small ways and occasionally in big ways as well.
EVER STARTED A FIRE:small fires to burn small things and big fires to burn big things :)
DO YOU THINK YOU'RE EVIL:i want to believe I'm inherently good but i know I'm capable of being evil.
DO YOU LIKE CHEATERS:it really depends on the situation. I like them if they can help me.
DO YOU REGRET: No, I don't. With everything that has happened, I'm glad I still don't have regrets.
DO YOU HAVE A BESTFRIEND:Yes, a bestfriend can have several definitions, levels and can be several people.
DO PEOPLE HATE YOU:Yep, people might hate me. I can't point anyone in particular though.
DO YOU HATE PEOPLE:I can hate people as an immediate reaction but it never lasts for more than a day.
CAN YOU KILL SOMEBODY:just because i hate them probably not. to save myself and people i love or just care about ( two different things ) i would kill without hesitation.
DO YOU CUT YOURSELF?:Why would I cut myself?
EVER TASTED BLOOD:yup. mine mostly. Neal's blood occasionally...
DO YOU CARE WHAT OTHERS MAY THINK OF YOU?:Nope.
ARE YOU GOTHIC:Now that I think about it... no. I'm a happy sunny person who just happens to like writing about killing people sometimes.
DO YOU SMOKE:It depends on what needs to be smoked.
CONSUME DRUGS:good question.... what do you mean by consume? ;)
WHAT DO YOU WEAR:when i feel like i need to be "pretty" (this is all relative) I really dress up. otherwise I wear shirts and shorts and rubber shoes!this does not apply to work days.
DO YOU LIKE THE SUN:I don't have anything against it but I can't walk under it with my eye wide open ( my eyes are just slits) even if it's not a sunny day. it's one of the reasons my sister believes I'm a vampire.
HAVE YOU LOST SOMEONE YOU LOVE:Yes.
HOW DOES GRIEF FEEL:Like a ghost hanging around the house with a string to a knife sticking out of your heart.
YOUR ROLE MODEL:Haruki Murakami. He writes, he runs, he's a very popular writer in both Japan and America. He can speak and write in Japanese and in English! Well, yes he is Japanese but still...
YOUR HEART DESIRES TO BE WITH WHOM:A little lost dragon named Nathan.
YOUR LISTENING TO:The fan blowing and someone's bad music renditions.
DO U HATE YOURSELF:I think I might hate myself just a little right now.
EVER GET DRUNK? :I've been trying to get drunk, very unsuccessfully. Got really close several times a couple of months ago but my liver always fights back.

The Lost Dragon

I created a new blog for baby Nathan. I just really wanted to have something to remember him with and this would be a good thing to leave his future brothers and sister so they can also remember him.

The Lost Dragon.

In Memory

Nathaniel Jean Gabriel Dalusong Saveron

April 18, 2009 (1:11 PM)
April 20, 2009 (5:27 AM)

He lived for 1 day, 15 hours and 16 minutes.
Touched the lives of over a hundred people, most of which didn't even see him alive.
He will always be in my heart after he spent 9 months under it.
He'll watch over us until we join him.